I wonder who you are.
I wonder how your eyes tell your stories as you look back into the mirror.
I wonder how you kiss and tell the world I love you – when all you do is kill and maim and hurt and cry.
& then I saw your face tonight – Your sacred showcase of human paradise.
Your curls and teeth and lines which break my heart.
& I see you smile.
I see you swim. in thought, in hope. in drowning waters which flow.
& I hold you down. & watch as the waters fill your mind.
Your kiss was immaculate & your tenderness was a golden lie. “I love you!” you’d say.
I saw your face tonight. in my mind, as I slipped under, chasing after you.
& i reached for you.
you screamed. you kicked. but you never came back.
Your eyes broke me. Your beauty of such richness was such that I cried in every moment in which I took my breath.
& You were all. You were life. You were the desire I held inside.
But again, i saw your face tonight.
& a single, incredible, beautiful, perfect tear flowed.
I cupped your cheek. I tasted your neck. I brushed your gentle hair and inhaled the nectar of your sweet perfume.
My legs shook & my heart faltered. & i stuttered out the words to say hello.
& you climbed into my bath. you turned the water on. & you held my hand.
& I held you down.
(c) Ed Simkins