would you say yes if love smiled wide? if it approached your door and knocked?
would you give it all the time of day? or politely turn it far away?
for on a wet wall outside your house, i sit and ponder. a dream fulfills my mind but flutters scared.
i recall the days, the girls, the doors which closed. i know my fate before the deed is called.
i see you walking through your warm rooms at night. i see you think and act and dream alone.
do you know i exist? do you care that i seek? that a human kind exists for you?
But a dark shadow freezes here. filled with fear, his nerves a mess.
i seek you temptress. but how, how i’m scared!
that passion sought is not the paine, but humiliation is, defeat. the dreaded answer no.
a stupid boy.
one that’s stuck to distant wall.
i watch you dream & whispers call. repeat.
a cup of tea, a simple chat. a laugh and knowing smile.
a pleasant thought, a happy silence, the space between where no paine grows.
we’d talk and look, our eyes would flirt, and bitten lips would tease & lead.
our happy hearts would bounce and dance with loving joy that friendship brings.
& how we’d sing in silly games that children play in youthful times.
& roses wait upon your door.
for i’m scared to say, to let you know. so i walk off home & mix my tears with the pouring rain.
leave you there, through watered wooden window frames, & let you watch a wall where stranger sat.
as dark clouds journey through their twilight path, & bid farewell to dreams undone,
& slowly kiss with slight rejection, the man of truth upon your wall.
~ dreams are the things I have inside. reality i know, is unfathomable, without control.
(c) Ed Simkins